LOST HEAVEN

2009-12-20T18:29:00.002+08:00

劇中的情節已經慢慢進入我的情緒

厭倦是蛻變的開始麼？

『逃避』是一個暫時的避風港

讓人沉溺在其中

卻忘却了在那之後的重大衝擊

膽小的自己其實早已習慣了這個模式

卻任性得以爲萬事皆有可能

2009-08-10T17:39:00.005+08:00

突如其來的八月，讓人有些措手不及

習慣了一塵不變的方式

你不在我才找回了真正的自己

我好像已經遺忘，卻還是無法釋懷

2009-04-11T20:33:00.007+08:00

【3/4月间的心情写照】

[一]
人总会在即将逝去的时光里试图抓紧所有的回忆

习惯在去学校的那段路上抬头仰望10和25中间的那片树

习惯在回家的途中与一只只慵懒的小猫们擦肩而过

习惯于在失望的那一霎那安慰自己，强颜欢笑

习惯在心情不好的时候不说话或发脾气...

[二]
【handsome suit】不只是幽默和无厘头

要去寻找和感受身边那小小的幸福

选择【梦寐以求的自己】或【平凡快乐的自己】

我想如果是我，我会选择前者...

[三]
最近的天气：【早上晴。下午雨。晚上阴】

心已经下定决心，可是时间总是无法配合

扭开Radio，一样的频道，一样的DJ

可是感觉已经和两年前的截然不同了

再次错过了【陈绮贞】的演唱会...

[四]
其实我很在意你们不经意间说过的话

其实我因敷衍你而罪恶，不过你好像已经忘记了

其实我还不知道自己的路，现在还被锁在迷宫中

其实刘海的长度让我很挣扎...

2009-01-13T20:11:00.001+08:00

我以為...我以為...原來一切都隻是我以為...

2008-12-11T23:16:00.002+08:00

我想我越来越能理解你了。

猜疑，困惑和忧虑...

总是莫名的哭泣，

有时候连我自己都无法理解。

我发现我什么都看不顺眼

including myself!

2008-11-25T23:27:00.003+08:00

总是被身边莫名其妙的事情操控

人总是被肤浅的表面所迷惑

看似善良的人未必如此

若在第一秒便能看穿人的本质

每一个人都赤裸裸地展现在眼前

心中也许不会有诸多问号了吧？！

刚和某人的谈话之后，我蓦然

刚那番话是出自我口？

似乎在纷扰中感性了很多

要看穿一个人可以从他的日志下手

一个人可以掩饰心情，说谎应对

但却不能不坦诚的面对自己...

2008-11-13T19:39:00.002+08:00

人生中的第一次皮膚過敏.

有夠難受.很癢.怕留下疤痕

臉呈現微腫都狀態!

時間一分一秒地過去.

總是被我若無其事地揮霍掉.

最近很容易被感動.

隨便的故事都可以哭得稀裏嘩啦地.

頭髮漸漸地變長.

有一種想要剪短髮的衝動.

在衆人的勸導下决定放弃.

畢竟世俗的眼光仍然重要.

瞬間變成最熟悉的陌生人.

努力想要擠出隻字片語.

最後只剩下冷場和詞窮.

有時候有種逃避的心理.

終于邁出了關鍵的第一步.

隻怪自己不够勇敢.

低著頭收回了不爭氣的雙脚.

太偏執了.

注定只能獨自沉浸在悔恨中.

等待萬衆矚目的

『愛在發聲練習』

【總有些悔恨需要被時間稀釋掉】

【總有些悲傷能够被歡笑掩飾過】

---13/11/08

2008-11-01T18:26:00.007+08:00

记得10岁以前，每年最兴奋的事莫过于春游/秋游

整个游玩过程中最高兴的就是野餐了。

坐在草地上、木椅上、河岸边。

大家嘻嘻哈哈地吃东西，谈天和玩乐。

终于在上個周末，我们出发去寻找小时候的回忆

植物园，我们来了！！！

便当，零食，饮料绝对不能少

因为是星期日好多外劳和女佣哦。

有点拥挤，天气也有够闷的！

虽然再也找不回当初的感觉，

但毕竟重温还是很美好。

2008-10-12T21:11:00.004+08:00

[壹]

我想說明天就是『死期』
會慶倖如果沒有死的很慘
不然起死囬生希望實在不大

[貳]

這幾天都很愛自我沉溺
也許是日有所思夜有所夢
不祥的徴兆總是歷歷在目
有時候我很容易被看穿
所有想法都會赤裸裸地呈現在臉上

[弎]

是血液裏的A型傚應讓我悲觀？
還是魔羯的倔強讓人絕望？
機械式的笑容隻是為暸打髮週圍的好心人
喜怒無常隻是為暸掩飾內心的緊張和焦慮

2008-10-03T21:33:00.002+08:00

today's physics was a disaster. Recently I had a mixed feelings. Due to the exam stress I tend to eat slot and unable to control my temper at times. No mood to post anymore just hoping to do will for the rest of the exams.

2008-09-19T18:51:00.018+08:00

Actaully wanting to edit the previews post

but there's problems for blogger AGAIN!!! =.=!!!

Just watched the news,another murder case

life is so unpredictable!

2008-09-19T18:51:00.015+08:00

现在时间是20.11PM

天气越来越燥热了，不是已经秋天了吗？！

言语的调侃仿佛是生活的兴奋剂。

心情好转指数上升了11％

Sometimes i'm wondering is it very difficult to forget someone you loved once

I can't find out the answer yet, cause i haven't got the chance to feel it

But it is annoying to hear complains from people who still miss their ex...

There are so many homework for this weekend!! >.<

2008-09-02T22:03:00.004+08:00

上一次写的时候奥运才刚刚开始

现在已经结束10天了！哈哈，果然是度日如秒啊！

一直都在想『人的自信到底来自哪里？』

一个人有没有自信很容易就可以被看穿

XXX的自信是来自@$@%@%~@^$

001的自信是来自1654976465

那我的自信呢？！

不是圆滚滚的身材，不是在悬崖边的成绩，更不是人见人爱的好人缘

恩，我还在静静地搜寻着我的自信！

真希望人生也能像电影一样fast forward

forward不好的片断，只欣赏美好的片断！

template已经好旧了，应该换一换了...

2008-08-10T20:54:00.003+08:00

有時候有很多想法想要寫齣來

但是登陸以后，髮現什么都想不起來暸！

最近覺得自己的很多想法和心態都隨着某些東西而改變

人是善變的不是嗎？！哈哈

很高興自己終于可以漸漸釋懷暸

一直都很苦惱自己總是要經過很長的時間纔可以忘記

不過我似乎仍然會介意！

現在突然覺得以前我們要爭取的一切其實根本都不重要

勉強做自己不喜歡的事情其實很痛苦

慶倖自己現在很自我和隨心所慾

雖然不被認同但也不在乎

話雖如此，但我依舊愛逃避！

中國現在排名第一哦！！繼續加油！！

這張做得很難看，不過時間有限，隻能做到這種程度暸＝.＝

2008-07-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

2008-07-09T20:16:00.006+08:00

This pic was made two years ago,it was to encourage myself to lose weight!

I took my first meal at 4.11PM today.And i'm hungry now =.=

Look ahead rather than recall the history of the past!

“The darkest hour is that before the dawn. ”

2008-07-06T20:45:00.003+08:00

Tmr is youth day and is also the third week of the school

However, i was quite pessimistic recently

words can't really describe the mixed feelings i have now

But i know i should and i'm changing...

caz i am tired of everything that i used to do

i don't wish to force myself to do things which i don't like

neither i want to accommodate others until i'm losing myself

i know i am not good at handling relationships

i can't give considerations to everyone

Sometimes your attitude and words could make me down for the whole day

yet u don't seem to realise your behaviours are hurting the ones beside u

2008-06-22T17:20:00.001+08:00

功課功課我什么時候才能把妳做完啊？！....

2008-06-14T22:48:00.007+08:00

耶！看了3集的『蜂蜜幸运草』。好好看哦！很逗趣耶！

而且还有『郑元畅』超帅的！^3^

（不过觉得他好像永远都摆脱不了恶作剧的影子）

人物情感刻画的很细腻，人物也个性很鲜明哦

额。好像没什么好写的了。只觉得自己越来越宅了＝.＝

2008-06-11T21:11:00.007+08:00

刚才给电脑清病毒的时候，竟然发现有高达150个病毒 >3<"

差点被吓死！病毒也太猖狂了吧，难怪最近电脑经常处于死机状态！＝.＝||

眨眼之间，假期好像快要结束了。不想啊～～～

看着布满灰尘的作业，心里偶然会闪过一丝的愧疚感。

但『心有余而力不足』啊,有种莫名的力量把我推向慵懒（借口！）

菩萨快给我力量吧，打起精神，要努力啊！がんばれ！！

說下最近看过的电视剧好了。上个星期看完了『爱情占线』

剧情还是一样的烂！演技也没很好！不过我还蛮喜欢它的部分题材

导游把人物心里拍摄得很透彻，我们都会随着周围的环境而改变

即使再好的人，都会因心中的一丝邪念和嫉妒而做错事

『嫉妒』真是一个很可怕的东西，让人在不知不觉中失去理智

很同情剧中遭人唾弃的角色，觉得她很贴近现实中脆弱又愤世的我们

而且这部电视剧有两个结局哦！好期待新加坡版的结局啊！^^

恩，总体来说『爱情占线』还蛮不错看的说！

现在期待『霹雳MIT』的开播啊^__^

2008-06-05T21:45:00.004+08:00

我去剪頭髮暸哈。

雖然這個幼齒頭讓臉看起來很大

但是好像也年輕暸許多耶。哈哈！

最近好爽，一直在看之前沒辦法看的偶像劇和綜藝

完全自我沉淪，樂在其中！！

恩，覺得其實有時候刻意的舉動反而會弄巧成拙

雖然...但心裏還是...

算暸，一切順其自然好暸。

肚子好餓，吃宵夜去暸 ^3^

2008-05-24T19:54:00.003+08:00

2008-05-13T19:03:00.003+08:00

Its the end of MYE and we will be getting back all the results tmr!

I don't want to go sch tmr & i don't wish to face reality >_<

Caz i know my results would definitely dissatisfied&disappointed me!

Anyway, yesterday was our last paper which is A-maths.

After reached home i got the call from catherine and peiying

they ask me to go out and watch movie

so i have to go back to Aljunited MRT again and we went to PS

Superhero was humorous but too exaggerating -.-||

So after the movie we walked aimlessly and decided to go Esplanade

Btw i saw a art piece placed in art gallary in Raffles link.

It's named "SOAR" by a vietnamese artist

I fall in love with it at first sight, but it costs $4600!! -3-"

we would be receiving our results in abt 12hrs!Gd luck to all ^___^

2008-05-06T21:34:00.001+08:00

It's like finally i would have a break tmr to study for S.S & Maths & phy

Took Geo&maths&Chem on today and yesterday

Geo definitely single digit =.="

though i studied so hard and put in so much effort in it

certainly i just can't do well and have no interest in Geo

i think i must get very good grades for S.S

otherwise my combine humanities will fail!!

Maths paper 2 is ok, actually quite easy

regret didn't really study for my maths instead i focus on Geo!!

pure chem paper is quite ok, hopefully can pass

otherwise would be embarrassed by TSS again >3<"

Anyway there are still four more papers to go!

Good luck to everyone!!!

I Can't wait for the holidays to come ^___________^

2008-04-27T11:38:00.002+08:00

Many things had happened and many facts have been surfaced recently.Of course i see many hypocrites all around.

Anyway,i was touched when i hear the story. Trust is so important in a relationship afterall.Regardless how much he said he love u and how much he actually cares abt u. once he don't trust u, its all become meaningless.

I discover that i show less interest in study since the starting of the year. worst still i got really bad results for all my subjects. Why should i enter the first class at first place? Is it to please my parents? or just to show my ability? Mid year exam is just in a weeks time, yet i still don't understand a lot a lot of chapters. i really need motivation and pray for the miracles to happen. Anyway, i will try my very best to pass all the subjects. My expectation is not high, i'm only aiming for pass all the subjects =) Work hard work hard!!!

2008-03-30T18:51:00.005+08:00

I gain 1kg recently )=

when i looked at Maths revision wksheet.
i know NOTHING!!!

I need passion and concentration towards learning!!!

2008-03-21T00:29:00.002+08:00

Term two started from this week.Went for OBS during March holidays. Due to the bad weather, I did not enjoy much.Futhermore, I brought back many injuries and countless mosquito&sand fly bites.Its so itchy that I can't stop myself from scratching it, hopefully there would be no scars on my leg!!! I think sometimes grouping with your closer ones might not be really good. Becaz both of ur had already know each other so well until ur could simply forget all about the positive side of her, while u could easily see or sense the negative side. Thus,there's a risk that your might turn out quarrelling.Anyway, every experience has its worthy value for us to learn.And i think camps are really rare chances for you to observe the real personality of the people around u.Not to forget, i think i lost 1kg during the camp.CLAP!CLAP!CLAP!^_____________^

Wed's Dhrama lesson discussed abt our inner HEART. It says that even if its the person u disliked, u want him to be happy like you too! But if u want him to be happy, in the first place why should u dislike him? What a contradiction?! Personally, i think most people are narrow-minded,indeed i am one of them. I wouldn't want the person that i disliked to be happy. In fact, i would be happier if i see him suffering. Sounds so cold-blooded&heartless. But who dare to say they would not think in this way when they encounter such situation?

Today's good friday.Its time to rest and think.

2008-02-27T20:17:00.004+08:00

Reality changed many things around me.It seems i can no longer stay in my world of naiveness. I started to realise the facts.Friendships became so fragile that the connection was able to cut by a needle, or rather a small matter.Divided into different classes doesn't mean the friendship also split apart.Although all of us have to cope with our new environment and making new friends,i definitely would not abandon my old friends.I'm making friends not based on their cleverness either their background.we had lesser time to communicate due to release at different times.

Recent incident was really a valuable lesson for us to learn.That is think before you speak.I used to be very straight forward.simply voice out my feelings without any consideration.I think i should change although its not easy.As we grow older, we have to take responsibility for what we say.Esp caution in terms of expressing ur views,it might be mistaken by others,thus create misunderstandings.All right,sounds like writing comp.

I don't like to be in a state of confusion.I didn't do well for my current tests, not even those considered my strong subjects,the insatiable results were really disappointing me.I really have to work hard!!!

2008-02-10T18:36:00.000+08:00

Sch starts tmr.I quite enjoy this CNY becaz i can do whatever i want.Did not study at all for the past 5days as there isn't any homework for us.All i did are just eat sleep and sitting in front of the computer for countless hrs,of course i think i grow fat -.-

Nothing much to talk about.just post some pics below

2008-02-06T15:27:00.000+08:00

Today is chinese new year eve, yet i am feeling really down now.Early in the Morning scolded by TSS.Just becaz i forget to bring my clips and pin up my fringe.EXCUSE ME.today is CNY,yet she's still so strict towards us.When i intend to explain to her,she just simply come out with"STOP ARUGING!"Fine.i shall keep quiet. Unfortunately, i couldn't control my emotions and couldn't hold back my tears too.so i started crying.Its so disgraceful!!! Can u imaging everyone in parade square happily chit chating with friends and waiting for the start of CNYcelebration yet i am the only one crying and there's alot busybody strange eyes staring at u.Can she be more understanding and reasonable?! we just started to like her yesterday,becaz she give us ang bao,and she's the first teacher so kind to the students.so i thought she's changing...Anyway, i miss Mr Tay,is happier to been in his class,no much worries,all laughters.I don't know since when i became so fragile,i don't like to see girls crying over small matters,but i did that today, and tears seemed nonstop!And later, i still have to act as if i am very happy today and welcome them alot,becaz my mother's friends are coming over at evening,why must we be so fake? can we just show what we really feel inside? We can't! becaz people can't face reality!!

I don't know what i am writing about,it's all messed up! but i just want to pour out my feelings esp the bad ones and feel more comfortable!hopefully crying today would not make me bad luck throughout the year! I knew i am superstition =) Oh ya.i want to thank those people who had comfort me today!!

2008-01-25T23:13:00.000+08:00

I particularly feel good for updating my blog once a week.It's quite interesting when u can actually recall what u had done so far.Ok.time to summarise this week. i think Phyllis angry with us almost the whole week,just becaz we didn't wait for her in the morning.Dear Phyllis,if u are reading my blog right now,i have to tell u this:i didn't wait for u recently becaz Mrs TSS every morning came very early just to check whether her obedient students got follow her instruction to sit there at 7.20am sharp or not.In order to prevent unnecessarily scoldings from her,i have to reach sch early,so pls be understanding&try to change ur temper and don't be angry with us so easily.ok?U are the cutest!!!

On Thur,a group of us stayed back to complete the class decoration. Unfortunately, not many people volunteered to stay back and help out,so we only had about 5 people to finish a quite big task.I draw the castle, but it turned out became some very weird houses,its totally different from what i had draw on the A4 paper,its really difficult to enlarge the drawing and also my drawing is not nice!!

For today,surpurisingly i need not attend the extra english lessons,but i think i should and i have no idea how come i manage to pass my composition?? so i'm thinking that should i request to have extra lessons too?!Anyway,today and Wed i attended the Leadership training, i suppose it was quite enjoyable. The trainer lead us to play some games and enlightened us to realise many values,oh ya, we had our tea break too.haha.

Becaz i had wasted last weekend,thus i'm telling myself that tmr&Sun i must use the time efficiently as i found that recently i had no mood to study.esp for Maths.i like almost falling in sleep during the maths lessons. And most likely i think i'm going to fail my first A-maths test!!So people, pls comfort me if it really happens!

2008-01-20T18:43:00.001+08:00

I suddenly realised that i am actually very good at wasting time.I look back what i had done for this two days, ITS NOTHING!!I really regret spending this weekend with daydreaming and watching taiwanese drama!!Now, i hope time can turn back so that i have much more time to study!Nowadays i would always feel dispirited!This could be the first time i feel in that way.How How How???

currently i did not use MSN due to some problem.Lazy to fixed it so let it be.Alright,i have to do my EL compo now.

2008-01-19T23:19:00.000+08:00

Pics for last week

2008-01-13T18:54:00.000+08:00

Long time didn't blog,actually feel like throwing away my blog,caz sometimes u can't type real feelings n secrets here,unless there's no one reading it!!

Friday was my B'day! Thks to those who had wished me Happy B'day and give me presents and after school, Art club went to toys museum.Though its very tiring as we walked to wrong directions,its worth to actually get chance to see many many interesting and scary toys in olden days.Took many pics and talked with fatheen on the way, shall post the pics on next post.

School starts for two weeks, i'm satisfied with many things and surprisingly i found EL lesson was interesting n enjoyable, unfortunately Ms Choeng gonna leave us soon!I don't know why Mrs TXS always pick on our hair, especially girls with long hair n fringe, i think we had done what she told, clip up our side fringe all that despite it looks really ugly n nerd!! BUT she's still dissatisfied with that,every morning scold me, that's made me moody throughout the day!If i don't have so much fats on my face i wouldn't mind using a hairband!Alright,enough about that!This years i'm study with all these clever and hardworking people,its really stressful,and i must force myself to study and do revision all that. Actually i really don't like study and feel like transfering class after i realise my form teacher is actually like that, provided my parents don't mind me transfering!BUT they do,so i have to carry on this kind of life!!

Sounds like writing an essay, i didn't realise i write so much things actually.Alright, shall stop here first!

2007-12-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

It's been ages since my last update

During this holiday,i'm working for a month

bought many things,and lost some weight.haha

but now i still have many homework left untouch!!

2007竟然就要這樣結束暸！！囬首今年，髮生暸好多事情哦。

逝去的朋友，心中的猶豫，麵臨挑戰……但是總算都過去暸！

仔細算起來我已經2個月沒踫電腦暸。因為原本還以為壞掉暸～

4個月沒踫blogger，所以好多程序都忘光暸！恩。現在又要重新慢慢的記～

先說下聖誕好暸，因為街上的人實在是太多暸，所以幹脆就在傢裏看偶像劇

今年的聖誕很滿意哦！有暸多啦A夢，幾米，張小嫻，音樂盒，外加N件衣服和配件！

但是辛苦打工的錢也花得差不多暸～不過還是很開心，被虛榮心衝昏頭的后果 =_=

對暸！期待以久的『惡作劇2吻』終于隆重登場暸！！看暸2集，很好看耶！！^3^

某天整理東西的時候才髮現到原來傢裏已經堆積暸一些多啦A夢的繫列暸！

恩。現在要開始功課ing～～～貼2枚本人炤片來ending

這就是傳說中的『沒有錶情就是最好的錶情』HoHoHo

2007-08-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

Wow!!Today is really a wonderful & enjoyable day!!

In the morning, i met phyllis & joan at MRT

then we go school to attend the ND celebration

After that we had class outing to Plaza Singapura

and we decided to watch "ALONE" which is a scary movie

Sharmaine sit beside me and she had watched before

lucky she told me which part is scary,so that i can prepare to cover my eyes

And susmita made us laugh throughout the movie!

I also took alot photos with them and i designed a few of it ^_^

Melita & susmita & Me

Peiying & Me &valerie & susmita ( sorry about the photo is abit blur )

phonelay & me & cheryl & wenyi

Sharmaine & me

cheryl & me & peiying

It's me and i'm wearing peiying's cap ^_________^

2007-07-31T20:48:00.000+08:00

Many things had changed on this week

we had our new time table

our English teacher change to Ms Maya =.=

And finally Science teacher change to Mr Gui ^__^ YEAH!!

I really enjoy Mr gui's lessons

caz I can read magazine&comics and do whatever i want!

Lastly i'm finally done with YT's frame!!

2007-07-22T18:47:00.000+08:00

I found this drawing story in my document today, its really meaningful!!

2007-07-21T16:30:00.000+08:00

Today i really really very pissed off with BLOGGER.

while i was helping shufang design her blog, my internet explorer suddenly disapper

so i re-enter,but as usual i couldn't enter it.

after tried it several times,i give up.

This tells us we must quickly save it whenever we made changes in blogger

yesterday i actually wanted to blog.but also blogger got problem =.=

Waste my effort lah!!!

Yesterday, i intend not to go Art club

In the end, i still went there&we had an enjoyalbe time

Mr Wong was leading us to do Racial Harmony photographer project

and teach us about editing

he also showed us a few advertisment&drama

because next few weeks we are going to produce a video for competition

sounds interesting.Looking forward to it.Haha

shufang says if i don't wear spectacles looks fatter

so i took pictures with spectacless

I also finished design with SF's blog top

she say the previous one is nicer

but i prefer this one, because i feel it looks more artistry.^V^

2007-07-18T20:15:00.000+08:00

Today Mr Gui saved Joan&my anniversary photos inside the thumbdrive and pass it to me

I'm expected i looked very fat&ugly in the photo >_<

while Joan looked so smart&nice

nvm.I must face the truth!!

2007-07-15T16:55:00.000+08:00

This is made by me for SHUFANG.HAHA ^_______^

but i don't know why it can't move when i upload to blogger

Tomorrow is Monday again.I serious regret not choosing Basketball or Soccer

but choose Badminton as my NYAA item.Its really troublesome to bring

Badminton on everymonday. or rather i'm too lazy to bring it to school -.-||

Anyway,i still feel chinese will express my feelings better

so i put a silver line on top of this blog to write my chinese entires

If u can understand chinese please go & see

but most be patient as the loading is a bit slow (\^V^/)

2007-07-14T16:38:00.000+08:00

ART CLUB is my new CCA!!!

yesterday, i together with SF,Clara,Jas SQ&WJ went for ART Club

I was quite enjoy the feeling of drawing

althought i use to be hate drawing a lot

somemore the teacher is very nice&flexible

This is my first art piece

2007-07-09T18:16:00.000+08:00

we had our new sitting arrangement today

which i was quite satisfied with

After school went for the boardgaming program

its quite interesting actually and requires thinking

I had lots fun throughout the game

2007-07-08T17:15:00.000+08:00

I've delete all my previous post because its a new start!

This simple skin will be my layout for the time been as

i have no mood to create a new one

Friday back from camp and went to TM with Phyllis to take our lunch

Although many of my friends didn't go for the camp,the camp was still

fun&memorable!!!I am the first one to try flying fox,its hard to describe

the feeling,i actually regret not to try again!!!

For Rock Climbing,i manange to climb half way,its really tiring!!

The most funny thing is MR TAY dancing during campfire!!!ITS DAMN FUNNY!!!

The only thing i don't like is during shower time,we have to queue up for so long!!

I made this today,i actually plan this to be part of my new layout